roadster55
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Thanks all. I can't make up my mind what to do TBH. When I go out for the day all is well, but when I have to stay home that's when it really bites, and when I come home from being out too. But I presume that this is the grieving period and it's early days still? I work from home part-time and it's been very difficult to do that properly recently and I'm making lots of silly mistakes.
My flat and campervan are only small, so size of dog will be restricted, I believe it also says that on the leasehold too. But I think I'll have to replace Kimberley one day because when you're on you own a dog I think is more than just a pet, rather a spiritual necessity.
A friend said the way I was feeling was because neither my mum's nor Kimberley's death's were by natural causes but by accidents. She said that I'm feeling a certain amount of guilt over both; mum because I chose the nursing home for her, and Kimberley - well you know about that. She said that was quite normal even though there was nothing I could have done about saving either of them, and that the feeling will wane over time.
At the risk of making myself open to ridicule, there have been some strange things occurring in my flat over the past week; from within 24 hrs of Kimberley being taken away, I've heard what sounded like her little whimper when she thought it was time for me to get out of bed and make her breakfast! I put that done to grief and a hope/expectation that she might still be with me. I also put the feeling that she was still around me at home down to the same cause.
However something else is happening which I'm finding much harder to explain; her breed (Japanese Spitz) tend to drop little fur balls on carpets wherever they spend a fair bit of time, they are like little balls of white wool and quite distinctive. I've got a Dyson Animal vac and it's very efficient at what it does. I've vacuumed the carpets several times since her death, but these little fur balls have re-appeared in certain places and I've collected several over the past week? Even more strange every single one has been either near my armchair or beside my bed in the two places she would settle as close to me as she could.
My flat and campervan are only small, so size of dog will be restricted, I believe it also says that on the leasehold too. But I think I'll have to replace Kimberley one day because when you're on you own a dog I think is more than just a pet, rather a spiritual necessity.
A friend said the way I was feeling was because neither my mum's nor Kimberley's death's were by natural causes but by accidents. She said that I'm feeling a certain amount of guilt over both; mum because I chose the nursing home for her, and Kimberley - well you know about that. She said that was quite normal even though there was nothing I could have done about saving either of them, and that the feeling will wane over time.
At the risk of making myself open to ridicule, there have been some strange things occurring in my flat over the past week; from within 24 hrs of Kimberley being taken away, I've heard what sounded like her little whimper when she thought it was time for me to get out of bed and make her breakfast! I put that done to grief and a hope/expectation that she might still be with me. I also put the feeling that she was still around me at home down to the same cause.
However something else is happening which I'm finding much harder to explain; her breed (Japanese Spitz) tend to drop little fur balls on carpets wherever they spend a fair bit of time, they are like little balls of white wool and quite distinctive. I've got a Dyson Animal vac and it's very efficient at what it does. I've vacuumed the carpets several times since her death, but these little fur balls have re-appeared in certain places and I've collected several over the past week? Even more strange every single one has been either near my armchair or beside my bed in the two places she would settle as close to me as she could.